Some Thoughts On The New Year And Asking For Forgiveness
September 12, 2010 Leave a comment
It is now 5771 — Happy New Year!
I was not ready for Rosh HaShanah to be here this year. It seemed to be too early – school had not yet even started! How could it be Rosh HaShanah? Shortly after Labor Day, it seemed to confirm that summer is over and fall has begun. Yet, I am not ready for fall to be here. Slowly though, I realized that I am not in control of such things.
As I attended services, I became more and more aware that it really was Rosh HaShanah. The readings, poems, prayers, and sermons all make it so real. It may even be that the timing is perfect for me, as though Someone is looking out for me. While I had to miss part of orientation to attend services, I did not need to miss school this year. I definitely prefer this schedule.
I have so much to be thankful for. I have so much I need to do better. I have been told by some that I am a “good person” and that I must not have much for which I need to ask forgiveness. I am glad that is the opinion those people have of me. Nevertheless, I know that I have done things that I should not have done, not done things that I should have done, not performed my best, ignored people, hurt people, and not always done what I could (e.g. in relation to my understanding of others and trying to make the world a better place) during the past year.
I know that it is impossible to be perfect — but, I know I can do better. And I will.
As the New Year begins, I am making a commitment to myself, to God, and to everyone with whom I will interact to improve and become a better person. I want to use my influence for good. I want to be less judgmental (non-judgmental would be ideal). I want to not speak ill of others (or at least make significant strides in this area). I want to be more understanding. I am sure I will need reminders of each of these commitments throughout the year. I appreciate those of you who will help ensure that I fulfill my commitments.
As is customary during the Ten Days of Repentance, I ask your forgiveness for anything I may have done against you this past year, any sins I may have committed. I ask your forgiveness for anything I may have done to/against you whether in person or without your knowledge/behind your back, knowingly or unknowingly. I apologize for any pain I may have caused you. If there is something I have done that I have not proactively addressed, please let me know as I would be amiss in not doing so.
Thank you for being a part of my life, however large or small. As we continue towards Yom Kippur I extend wishes of a sweet, happy new year full of health, peace, and prosperity.
May we all be inscribed and sealed in the Book of Life.
שנה טובה ומתוקה